Day 1 of Clomid

So I’m a bit frightened right now. I swear its time like this I could really use a mom! Well, I finally was able to induce a period…never thought I’d be so excited about that! Today is day 1 of my Clomid. I am taking it on days 3-7…. and nervous. I’m nervous about side effects, I’m nervous about not ovulating, I’m nervous that the day I ovulate I will be stuck working on not be able to see the husband! I’m nervous that it will work and I will have twins (not that that would be a misfortune, I just don’t think I can do it).

I’m too nervous too much. I need to relax. I told my husband that if worst come to worse and I ovulate on the days I’m working…I’ll just call in sick for a day. He thinks that is  “a bit much”…I swear men really don’t understand the timings of these things some times!

another thing I’ve been struggling with is embarrassment. I wanted to be a mother naturally. Now I feel like I’m creating a baby in a fake laboratory. I know THAT sounds ridiculous, because really all I’m doing is shortening my cycles and ovulating. him and I are doing all the work …right? 

Every day I swear on facebook I see a new ultrasound picture from a friend who is having a baby. I guess I don’t know if any of them are on Clomid or how long it took, but I do know a good many which were unplanned…..and I am struck by jealousy and sadness all at the same time.

Why do us women have to think so much? maybe its just me, but I wish i could just stop over analyzing everything, and just be thankful that the Dr can give me something that will allow a shorter cycle so we can try it.

Maybe, when it comes down to it. I’m just scared it wont work and I really wont ever be able to have children. my whole life…thats all i really wanted. Some people were made to be and do great things. I was made to be a mother. Hopefully it will happen!

I’ll post the next 5 days on how the clomid is doing, and if I am getting any side effects from it!

 

Good luck too all of you!

3 thoughts on “Day 1 of Clomid

  1. I did three cycles of clomid and while the side effects are not fun you can handle them. The best advice I would give you is to be fully aware what side effects are to be expected, that way when they happen you are aware that it is just a side effect (and you haven’t gone crazy). All the side effects should subside in two weeks. Also a big help for me on the last two cycles was that I took the pills at 8pm so that if I was going to experience hopefully it would in my sleep. Whishing you luck!

    • Thanks for the heads up! so far so good, but I’ve only taken 2 of 5 at 50 mg. Did the clomids work for you at all? Why is it so hard to conceive. Fingers crossed. My cousin got pregnant on her first dose with clomid with twins….so im anxious about everythign right now!

      • Unfortunatly it didn’t work as well as I had hoped I did ovulate one out of 3 times. I switched to fermera to try and avoid an IUI at doctors recommendation but may go back depending on how I react to fermera in the next three cycles. Why is it so hard??? It could happen in the first go I have read many succes stories, if it doesn’t don’t be disappointed there will still be more rounds to go.

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