I called my Doc today and told him about the events of this weekend. He ordered me to go get a blood test, to make 100% sure I am not ‘pregnant’…. which is insane, because I told him the Mars Rover wouldn’t be able to withstand the current events of my Uterus right now. But never the less, he wanted it documented. After my blood test, he told me I could go to Walgreens to pick up my prescription of 100 mg of Clomid…..doubling the dose of Last month.
I am so hopeful. We caught the egg last month, the progesterone just wasn’t strong enough to continue it. So I’m hoping with 100 mg of Clomid, we will get a nice big ovulation that will give us a strong BFP….(is it bad that I want to star creating a secret Pin board on Pinterest of all my ideas for a nursery now?!)
I’m a little nervous to take 100 mg. I turned into the wicked witch last month, I only fear I might turn into Swamp Thing this month. I’ve heard of ladies taking it at night to sleep through most of the symptoms, so maybe I will try that. I start my first dose tonight. Excited and nervous, I’m not sure which is out ways the other.
I am in a remarkably positive mood today! I even called my sister-in-law today (the baby shower one, who shouldn’t be getting pregnant and did), to try and make amends. I am happy for her, I am. Although we don’t see things eye-to-eye, I have to be the bigger person, and realize she is pregnant, and having a baby she has always dreamed of having, but hasn’t had because she is sick and was undergoing treatments. It very well might be their only child they will ever be able to have, and I need to lay down whatever qualms I have will her, and make this pregnancy as special as I can for her. If I was in her situation, that’s what I would want. Since she is too weak to even paint the nursery, I offered to go over and paint it and get things ready for her.
“The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater our own sense of well-being becomes. Cultivating a close, warm-hearted feeling for others automatically puts the mind at ease. This helps remove whatever fears or insecurities we may have and gives us the strength to cope with any obstacles we encounter. It is the ultimate source of success in life.
As long as we live in this world we are bound to encounter problems. If, at such times, we lose hope and become discouraged, we diminish our ability to face difficulties. If, on the other hand, we remember that it is not just ourselves but every one who has to undergo suffering, this more realistic perspective will increase our determination and capacity to overcome troubles.” The 14th Dalai Lama. (link to whole passage here)
I know I quote him often, but what he says really resonates with me, and so I hope that maybe someone out there will read one of his quotes, and it might offer some sense of understanding, or something…or, I don’t know, I just really love quotes.
I was going to look up Clomid 100 mg success stories, but I don’t want to see stories that didn’t work, because I truly believe it will work. 50 mg worked….sorta, so maybe 100 mg will! I have to be hopeful. I heard Yams are suppose to help with Progesterone too….so maybe I’ll get my Yam on this month.So that is that. I should keep up my good mood and be productive around the house. I start my new job a week from today. I hope the “stress” of starting a new job won’t interfere too much with TTC. I should be ovulating the end of next week or the week after, and that still puts me in training/orientation, so hopefully not too too stressful…besides this last month I had three interviews with this company, and was pulling my hair out waiting to find out if I got the job or not.
Welp, here it goes ladies. I’m wishing you all the best of luck, since I know many of you are in the Two Week Wait right now, and I am hoping for really really good vibes this month. Please help me to stay positive for the next couple of weeks!