Well, I want to kill him at least! (But I won’t I promise).
This “marriage” it turning into a mix between a Soap-opera and a Monster Truck rally– full of tearful, over the top, drama and lots and lots of ruthless yelling.
This 5 months apart will hopefully repair us…..or it’s not looking good for our future. He just doesn’t get it. I work full time, I make dinner, I take care of the dogs, I clean when I get a chance too, AND I have to try and conceive. Yes, I am exhausted with it too, but I still manage to do it all.
When we first started TTC, we tried having sex every other night, and the hubs got burnt out. So we went to OPKS so we wouldn’t have to do every other day for an entire month. Then he started getting burn out doing it every day during my 4 days of Positives. So this month, he PROMISED me that he would be ready. So I took the TEN fucking pills of clomid, I peed on sticks, I check my CM, and here I am, empty as ever!
I have the right to be upset. It doesn’t seem like he cares, and then when I make a comments like “Well, I guess we’ll just have to deal with a life without children, since we can’t even have sex to make them” and he’ll yell from the other room to “Grow up!” and then I just sit in the bedroom stewing and crying, and wondering what the hell I’m doing.
I am SO cranky today. We had sex TWICE this month. even for a healthy married couple not trying to have kids, that’s ridiculous. Are women that much stronger when it comes to dealing with multiple stressful things? My boobs don’t hurt, my CM is normal, so I know that the one time during the +OPK we had sex, didn’t even work. What am I going to do? Take 5 months off, and as soon as he comes back home, go back on Clomid, and hope that he doesn’t get sent away the following month, for an 8 month project (highly likely).
I don’t want this to ruin my marriage any more. Yes I want kids, but I really really like my husband.
When do you stop trying? When is your breaking point? After you’ve destroyed your marriage beyond repair? On the brink of destroying it? Or when you start to notice that something just isn’t right? Are priorities having kids? Carrying on a family tree? Or finally having them, and you have so much resentment built with your husband that divorce is the next step, and then you still aren’t happy, because you couldn’t imagine life being better with someone else.
My husband and I are the perfect couple….. so, when is it time to just be happy with that, and secure a long-lifetime full of happiness and adventure together?
I’m 27 years old. There is no reason for this. What the hell do I do?