I am doing so good at the break ladies! I can’t even begin to express how good it feels to feel like I’m getting back to normal. At one point of this trying to conceive emotional jungle, I was 100% unreasonable when it came to babies. I wanted them, I hated everyone who had one. I hated. It was so awful to be so negative. Even looking back at some of my posts. The husband and I were fighting, I was crying all the time, and I was miserable….. so young, so full of life, and I was miserable and exhausted. Burnt out.
Since the break, which has been a month, I have really tried to be cognitive of the fact that I needed to do some intense self-spring cleaning, both mentally and physically…. and what better time when you truly CAN’T try to conceive and you have plenty of alone time? I am sure you are tired of hearing this, but I feel so damn good right now. I have been eatting better, I have been getting plenty of sleep, I have switched to Tea, and have with-gone the coffee and wine (I know they aren’t bad for you, but being on this revamping, I need to detox from everything right now and reboot). I’m starting to look healthy…not skinny, but the color is starting to come back to me, the bags of purple under my eyes are going away, and I am starting to have more energy.
I am 100% sure I have Adrenal Burnout/Exhaustion. I am all for self diagnosing, because in the past, I’ve always been right, Appendicitis? Gall stones? Stomach ulcers? Costrochondritis? I knew them all before the doctor gave me the news…… thank you WebMD! haha I know it’s not good, but I always say, as long as it doesn’t cause harm, then why not?
So, I’ve been making a conscience effort and actually trying these changes into practice for a month, and started really getting into it about two weeks ago….and you’ll never guess….this month, I had a 28 day cycle. I couldn’t believe how excited I was! 28 days!!!! I think it’s working, and it makes me so happy! Maybe this will be the answer?
I started taking an herbal supplement that is suppose to help with Stress and Adrenal Gland support. I wasn’t so sure about it at first, but after reading about it online, and the Whole Foods Market in town selling it…. I figured it can’t be lethal right? I asked the women working in that section at Whole Foods what she thought, If I was wasting my money or not, and she swore by it. She says it has become so popular she can’t keep it on the shelves, especially with exam time for the colleges. So I picked up a bottle, and I swear it has changed my life. Although I am making good lifestyle change choices, I needed some help physically to have my body start repairing itself, because I think I was on the verge of beyond self repair!
I have so much energy. I woke up at 7am today, mowed the lawn, cleared out the area behind my shed, build a 10′ x 4′ gate that seals the section off from the dogs, and I even started tearing apart my deck, so I can build a new one. I wasn’t tired, I wasn’t cranky, I wasn’t overwhelmed. The sun was out, and I was doing work and getting my hands dirty, and I had so much fun!
Even right now, as I lay in bed typing away, my constant sense of feeling overwhelmed has dissipated. I have a feeling of serenity, not foggy or in a drugged up sense, but just able to breath easier. I know it sounds crazy, but it’s so good to feel better! To not have a constant sense of urgency about everything. I was able to chop up half the deck today, and leave the rest for later….I didn’t have the need to finish is now, or have it feel like that task was looming over my head.
I was skyeping with husband when I was outside, and not even having to mention it, he told me how different I seem. How much more relaxed and happy I seem…not happy in the sense I am beaming and bouncing off the walls in a manic way, but more at ease and content.
I am just rambling tonight. But I will say, if anyone is struggling with the same thing and are into all natural remedies, run to your nearest health food store, and pick up a bottle of Himalaya Stress Care…the main ingredient, Chyavanprash, enhances “fertility, keeps menstruation regular and helps to overcome difficulties in conception”….
All right ladies, have a good night, and a wonderful, non stressing week!