The eye of the Storm

Sometimes, my life is like a hurricane. I feel like I now am in the eye of the storm, with the winds about to change direction on me. The last two years, I’ve wanted to get pregnant, but I didn’t have that the baby fever I so wish I had had. I was still scared. Still a bit nervous, and still enjoying my current life a little bit too much. My body is all sorts of out wack, but I am getting back to normal. I am a little tired (okay, a LOT of tired, I can barley keep my eyes open) so this is going to be a bit scared, but I have lots of news, and some much needed advice!

Very exciting to say that my cycle is well on it’s way to getting back to normal! You’ll never believe it. It was totally on the frits when I lived out east, and I have been really trying to make a point to get it back to normal, and my stress under control. usually a 36-42 day cycle, I got my cycle down to 32 days! So exciting. I was still feeling very off, super tired, and just blah. I finally went to the doctor, and you’ll never guess! No, not pregnant, but turns out, he believes I have a gluten allergy! WHICH is a VERY common reason of unexplained infertility. It also causes roseacia AND Adrenal fatigue! So I went off gluten, I started feeling way better, AND AND AND I ovulated on day 14!!!! Thats right a 28 day cycle. I cried. I know, it might be silly to some, but what if this is the reason for the troubles we’ve had. A gluten allergy/intolerance not only causes low progesterone, but it also causes very early miscarriages. So I thought I’d share.

 

Now here is the advise I am calling for from all my TTC bloggers. The husband was suppose to be gone for 4 months. He was due back End of July. He now is extended until November 😦 My birthday is next week and I will be 27. I don’t know why, maybe it’s being gluten free, but  I am starting to have baby fever like something fierce. I feel ready. I feel confident, and I don’t want to have to wait 5-6 more months before trying.  Not only that, but I’ve been away from him, with the occasional one weekend a month visit, for three months now, and it is not getting any easier. I miss him so much. We are so much better together…..

So, should I quit my job, pack up the doggies and a suitcase and move down there with him?! Or should I be responsible, and continue working to pay off debt, and just wait until he comes back at the end of the year?

 

It’s such a hard decision. We are doing very well financially right now, and can afford for me to quit, but if I quit, then it will be tight. With me working, we are paying off some much needed debt, but we are unhappy and sad being away from each other. My work decided to be ass-hats and tell me I can’t take any days off this entire summer, because we are too busy, so I will hardly be able to see him, and it is just continuing the delay of us trying to do the family thing. 

What would you do? Would you “man up” and continue to live apart for the next 5 more months, or would you say “screw it, lifes to short” and quit your job and move to where your hubby is located?  I really really really don’t want to have to wait putting of kids, and now that I am regular, I am just ready to go! 

Any way, I have more to say, but I can’t even keep my eyes open, so I thought I would put it out there to see if anyone have 2 cents. 

 

Till Then, 
Mrs. M

9 thoughts on “The eye of the Storm

  1. If it were me…I wouldn’t wait! This is just from my own experience, but I waited until next month to see what would happen, which turned into 6 months and then another year would pass and so on. Six years later, turning 40 this year and still trying…on and off with doctors help. Don’t delay it because those eggs will never get any younger and if you’re ready you should go for it. Congrats on the normal cycle!!!…what a wonderful accomplishment. I think I need to get off the gluten too. I was doing research on it this week…your blog is like a sign that I need to act on this. I have normal cycles but low progesterone off and on and I know I need to keep that number up. Also, I could never last being away from my hubby and if I were you I would go be with him. There are other jobs and other ways to pay off the bills. You talked in a blog once about only living once…go be with him and live the life you want! That’s just my two cents. I wish you the best no matter what you decide 🙂

    • Love the 2 cents! thank you. You are right, putting things off is all too easy, and I don’t want to get into the mind set of “we have time”. Good luck on your gluten free! I think you should def. do it! I feel so much better! let me know how it goes!

  2. If it were me, I’d pack up and go. Nothing like good change to keep you moving forward in life. You will be able to find another job, you can settle anywhere you chose, and for me personally I wouldn’t want to be away from DH for that length of time. If it feels right then do it!!! I’m excited for you!!

  3. You know, my husband and I spent two years “paying off debt” and “building his career” before we found out that we had MFI. Basically, family took a back seat and we paid a price–time. I felt like those two years were wasted, and my eggs along with it. We could have done a lot of leg work before hand but instead, we put our family on hold. I think it is a lie that society tells us that we have to “wait” until careers are stable, houses are ready, debt paid off, degrees earned… I know I don’t want to wait any longer and five or six months can be a LONG time when you are TTC. I’d say “if I were in your situation,” but I already am. And my husband and I are putting family first. I’d definitely talk to your husband about what you are thinking (definitely don’t want to add to his stress, too) but this is something you obviously want. Go after it!

  4. I’ve been wondering how you are doing since its been awhile since your last post. I would have to join hubby if it was me, but you have to do whatever brings you the least stress. If being away from him is more stressful than anything else then I say go get your man!! 😉

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