What a week. My sister in law has been non stop about how much her baby cries (really?! I feel like you should have seen this coming), My best friends has been texting me left and right how her bump is starting to show and asking me if she should go with the brown owls or the green owls (I’m her best friend, so I’m being supportive), and another good friend, the one that was going through fertility issued, and then failed to tell me she was pregnant until I saw it on facebook, is currently in labor. What else can you do other than run it out?
I ran my best run today. It’s not much for some people, but its my best, and that’s what matters…. I did 2.5 miles straight at a 12 minute pace. It was exhilarating to breath and get alone time with me.
I can’t describe the freedom of running when there is no one around. I get out there, I turn on my music, and I let go. I can’t remember if I wrote about this before, but I decided to sign up for a race!!!! I am doing the Firefly 5K race downtown Chicago in 2 weeks. I’m so nervous, but it’s been helping me keep focused on something other than my uterus.
So when my husband left, I was right about 192 lbs (yikes I know). The scale showed 176 today! I was in pure bliss. My husband thought I looked so good when I went to visit him this weekend, that he is buying himself a pair of running shoes this weekend and going to try it out himself. Not only because I looked good, but he hears me yammer on about how much fun my run was….and they usually are – of coarse, as they saying goes, the ‘the hardest step is the one out the door’. I had 1 million excuses for not running today….. but I did it!
I’m not going to yammer on about this all night, but I wanted to share, because this has really been helping me, and maybe it would be fun for a couple of us girls going through this hellacious infertility pain month after month, and focus on something else like running a race, (the Firefly is in a bunch of City’s around the US) or setting goals for each other….or even a book club – but for Godsakes, we need a distraction!
That is actually all I’ve got tonight. I just got back from the run, and I feel…. okay… which is 90% than I have felt the last couple of weeks.
Let me know if any of you ladies out there wants to be blogging/running buddies – no matter where in the world you are, we can prepare for a 5K together!
“There will be a day when I no longer can run — today is not that day”