Hello my beautiful ladies.
It’s been too long since I’ve been on here. I haven’t forgotten about you, or my blog that I found such comfort in for many years. The truth is, is that I have been avoiding it. When we stopped trying to pursue the child avenue, I wanted to rid myself from all memories of the TTC process. The strangers I bonded with here, the blogs about two week waits, OPKS, the heartbreak of a period every month -everything. I started a new blog about traveling and our lives, all in hopes to try and truly escape the pain of being barren.
I can’t even begin to tell you how drastically my life has changed in that hiatus. My husband and I traveled. I started doing things for me… Present me. Not ‘what if I have kids’ me… but just me. I decided to go back to school, to peruse a passion in the sciences. I applied for a random job as a Police Officer … why? Because it was a challenge that I wanted to try- I didn’t have a family to hold me back, and it was something I could put all my blood, sweat and tears into. I worked my ass off every single day to get to where I needed to be. I ran every day getting my time down. I went from 4 to 25 pushups. I went from running at mile and a half in 18:00 to doing it in 14:00. I felt strong… and best of all, I felt free. Honestly free.
Sometimes, life is strange. But I wanted to say hello to all my ladies who were so supportive so many years ago. I hope everything is perfect in your lives.