So, It’s been a while. Mostly because I had issues logging into this thing. I’ve been really stressed lately with a lot of life decisions- but I found that a lot of my problems come from external factors- politics, Facebook, gossip… ect. I’ve been working on getting the noise out of my head so I can focus more on whats important in my life.
So, life is funny. I remember writing in this to keep my whits about me when I was going through infertility. As you read, it was a struggle, and I even got to the point where I was going to change careers.
I had Baby Boy in June of 2016 after 6 years of marriage and infertility issues. He is amazing. I can’t believe he’s 2 1/2. when Baby Boy was 4 months old, I got pregnant again. Very unexpectedly as you can imagine- especially because I was a nursing mom, and thought that you couldn’t get pregnant while nursing. That turns out to be a myth. In August of 2018- I proved the myth wrong, and welcomed Baby Boy #2 into the world. They are my life. Two weeks after baby boy was born, we moved cross country for husbands work. It was hard. We moved to a very remote area in the Midwest- 2 HOURS away from a Target, or a store that was open 24 hours. I dont know if I had postpartum or If i was just depressed being there, but life got hard. I cried every day.
Life is hard. Life if hard when you dont have kids and want them… life is hard when you dont feel fulfilled in motherhood when you thought that was all you wanted. Life is hard when you have a defiant 2 year old, and trying to change careers.
We moved back home about a month ago, and I feel the sun again. I feel happy. I feel stronger. I migth keep posting in this blog- but it may turn less into struggles of infertility- and more about the struggles of feeling fulfilled with motherhood.
I hope you are all doing well in your Journeys!